Variety spoke to Halsey, manager Anthony Li and several collaborators on the For My Last Trick Tour to provide a behind the curtain look into the show.

“I think probably my whole career can probably like be summarized as me trying to have it both ways, all the time,” Halsey admits from a stop along the tour route — describing the dichotomies of “wanting to be big, but also be small… and also wanting to be weird but then also connect with large, vast audiences and make stuff that’s relatable and feels universal. Then, I also want to be theatrical and high-production and high-performance, but I also resent the sterility of that and the box of needing everything to go according to plan. So every creative venture that I get, every fresh canvas for me, is a new opportunity for me to kind of be like, ‘OK, cool. How do I get everything this time?’ You know, famous last words. Obviously, the challenge is trying to do that while always keeping it cohesive, and that was the big challenge with this one.”

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