I’m caught up in the everyday trend
Tied up by invisible thread
Walking down a razor-thin edge
And I wake up tired, think I’m better off dead
Been a few months since I crossed over state lines
Talk to my mom, fake smile over FaceTime
Drink all night ’til I can’t walk in a straight line
Feel so low but I’m high at the same time

I can’t keep my feet on the ground
And I’m nervous what you’ll think of me now
I’m hoping that someone comes around
And helps me figure it out

I think that I should try to kill my ego
‘Cause if I don’t, my ego might kill me
I’m all grown up but somehow lately
I’m acting like a fucking baby
I’m really not as happy as I seem

I’m still a little kid that can’t make friends
I wanna be invited, but I won’t attend
I’ve been having bad dreams my career could end
‘Cause I slip up when I should’ve played pretend
I turned eighteen and I left the city
I said, “I wanna be cool, I don’t wanna be pretty”
Voices all came crashing down
Said, “You’re too nice to run this town”

I can’t keep my feet on the ground
And I’m nervous what you think of me now
I’m hoping that someone comes around
And helps me figure it out

I think that I should try to kill my ego
‘Cause if I don’t, my ego might kill me
I’m all grown up but somehow, lately
I’m acting like a fucking baby
I’m really not as happy as I seem
Nothing’s as it seems
No, nothing’s as it seems
And I’m all grown up but somehow, lately
I’m acting like a fucking baby
I’m really not that happy being me

I don’t like the lie I’m livin’
I’m way too nice and too forgiving
I wanna go back to the beginning
When it all felt right
A rooftop, Lower East Side, I’m singing
Didn’t really give a fuck if I was winning
It’s all gone now, who am I kidding? (Who am I kidding?)
I do it way worse than I’m admitting

I think that I should try to kill my ego
‘Cause if I don’t, my ego might kill me
I’m all grown up but somehow, lately
I’m acting like a fucking baby
I’m really not as happy as I seem
Nothing’s as it seems (As it seems, as it seems)
No, nothing’s as it seems
And I’m all grown up but somehow, lately
I’m acting like a fucking baby
I’m really not that happy being me